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Sunday, October 1st, 2006

Posted by:a_n_a_s_life.
Time:11:02 pm.
hi, i thought i'd do a little intro

name i'd like to be known by: gol
age: 17
ed: anorexia/bulimia
how long i've had it: on and off for 6 years
cw: 140
height: 5'6"
hw: 150
lw: 78

i'd like to be around 100. i know i can do it because i'm falling into my ed again
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Tuesday, June 14th, 2005

Subject:My body the hand grenade
Posted by:anawrecks_ya.
Time:1:14 am.
Soooo life is a catastrophe.
I only really started re-restricting after lots of stupid fat shit and deleting this journal and im SO FUCKING LOST - i have a serious question for you all.

Those of you who drink, and particularly those of you with addictive personalities, how do you balance ana with drinking? I cant cope without either and both cancel each other out.

Such a fucking mess. Ive hardly eaten anything lately but ive lost like, two pounds... and believe me, im overweight enough to warrent a few more pounds than that!

.........missed these communities <3
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Sunday, February 13th, 2005

Posted by:dementedsprite.
Time:7:22 pm.
Mood: happy.
Yep, that scale said 125 this morning. Right on the dot. This makes me so happy after seeing it say anywhere from 126-128 for so long. I'm hoping that I can lose 1.65 lbs per week from now on so I can be 105 by my birthday. I'm going to try a new diet that I kind of created. It consists of apples, carrots, broccoli, and maybe I'll try some grapefruit. Plus lots and lots of water. I love water. :D
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Tuesday, January 11th, 2005

Subject:just a little tidbit...
Posted by:16_days_x.
Time:9:56 pm.
Mood: irritated.
" Anorexia isnt about being fat. It's about having fat. Any fat. Any buldge or fold or wrinkle that isn't skin, muscle, or bone. Fat's too dangerous. It's too amorphous. It has no structure, it dimples and jiggles and droops. It is born of a disturbing, invisible alchemy, by which a cracker, a slice of cake, a pickle, a ham sandwich, all of it is rendered into the same tallow congealed beneath your skin. Fat gets away from you. You can almost imagine that it replicates itself, that once you lay down that first layer, your fat will take over from there. You could imagine yourself consumed by it, swallowed and suffocated by it, pulled down and drowned in it. Fat does not negotiate, it rampages. Therefore the only way to be sure you're safe from it is to allow none of it, not one ounce or curve of it. You must strip yourself to skin stretched like a canvas on a frame of bone, and even then you have fought merely to a stalemate, a permanent demilitarized zone along which you must stand vigilant at all times. You have to stake out your border. Anorexia is not about being pretty. It's not about being desirable. It's not even about being thin, really, because "thin doesn't begin to describe what you're aiming for. Thin is too transient, too untrustworthy, too liable to slip away from you in a bite here, a nibble there. What you want is bone: absolute, impermeable, the Maginot line. Anorexia is not for the weak."
- Skin Game; Caroline Kettlewell

i couldnt have explained it better myself..x-posted like woahhh
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Friday, December 17th, 2004

Subject:Moon Quarters.
Posted by:dementedsprite.
Time:1:15 pm.
JAN. 3 9:46 am
JAN. 25 2:32 am
FEB. 15 4:16 pm
MAR. 3 9:36 am
MAR. 17 11:19 am
APR. 1 4:50 pm
APR. 16 6:37 am
APR. 30 10:24 pm
MAY 16 0:56 am
MAY 30 3:47 am
JUNE 14 5:22 pm
JUNE 28 10:23 am
JULY 14 7:20 am
JULY 27 7:19 pm
AUG. 12 6:38 pm
AUG. 26 7:18 am
SEPT. 11 3:37 am
SEPT. 24 10:41 pm
OCT. 10 11:01 am
OCT. 24 5:17 pm
NOV. 8 5:57 pm
NOV. 23 2:11 pm
DEC. 8 1:36 am
DEC. 23 11:36 am

In case any of you are interested in fasting on these dates. The times are PST, which is GMT -8 hours.
It's supposed to be a 24 hour fast, but I usually fast the day before, the day of, and the day after. That's 6 days a month of well proportioned fasting, and the weight should not come back.
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Wednesday, December 15th, 2004

Subject:negative calorie foods?
Posted by:motheranorexia.
Time:3:52 pm.
Do you guys think there's such thing as negative calorie foods? Because I know that if you go to a bunch of different pro-ana sites, there's often a list of negative calorie foods, but then I've talked to a couple people who don't think that they exist. True, everything has calories, but the "negative calorie" foods take more calories to digest than they actually have, supposedly. I used to eat them a lot, but now I'm worried as to whether they actually DO help with weight loss or not. So yeah, any advice/opinions would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

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Thursday, August 19th, 2004

Subject:Fitday thingy
Posted by:dementedsprite.
Time:11:43 pm.
Mood: restless.
Weight Goal Stats
Current Weight
Your weight is 130 lb as of 08/20/2004.

Weight Goal
Your goal is to weigh 105  lb by 05/09/2005

Goal Progress
You are currently 25  lb above the target weight.

The deadline for your goal is 262 days (37 weeks, 3 days) away.

To meet your goal you need to lose about 0.668 lb per week. 

That seems do-able, yet for some reason it always ends up being so hard. grrr.
In Supersize Me it took that guy something like a year and a half to get off 25 lbs. I hope that 3/4 of a year is enough time for me to do it. Blegh.
I took pictures of my tummy yesterday because I was so proud of it, but then I remembered that my mom reformatted her computer and I don't have the software for this camera, so I probably won't have updated pics for a while.
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Thursday, July 1st, 2004

Posted by:c0ncave.
Time:9:03 pm.
Mood: curious.
(x-posted.. sorry, I hate doing that)

My name's Lily, I'm 16.. live in FL (damn it's hot down here).. annnd umm.. yeah I consider myself to be very involved in ana. of course, the only cases you hear about are the ones like MK Olsen (who has grown on me).. where they get very very skinny.. and it's obvious.. then there are people like me, healthier on the outside, with the mindset inside of an anorexic, that slowly deteriorates the body and self esteem.. and it's kind of.. hard to realize that.
staying strong has never been so important, my lovelies.

mm.. my stats can be found here. This is a brand new journal specifically for ana related stuff.. I just thought I'd like to seperate this part of my life from everything else.. other journal: kaleidosugarf0x

ooh.. and check out my other entry for pics.
heh, brand new journal = 2 entries..
hmm.. would anyone mind telling me if they can see my peekatures? I think Photobucket is having some problems.. but it could just be my EXTREMELY VIRUS-INFECTED computer. yes, thanks muchly.

**blows kisses**
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Wednesday, June 30th, 2004

Subject:I was afraid of this happening...
Posted by:dementedsprite.
Time:7:34 pm.
Mood: full.
After being away for a week I had to come home so I could weigh myself. So here's the summary of how things have been going: I've been very restricted from food because I'm housesitting and the owners didn't leave me with much. In the past two weeks I have eaten about 4,000 calories and worked out on average 4 hours a day. Last Wednesday I was 129 lbs, today I am 132 lbs. That is 3 lbs in one week. Some ass-hat tried to tell me that I gained back lost bone marrow, but he had no info on me so it was all some bullshit theory. I can feel and see the difference in my muscles and I think it's fairly reasonable to say all the gained weight is from that. My waist is still at 30"... 26" if I suck in; my hips are at 36", and I think my boobs are getting smaller. My neck lin looks beautiful, my collar bones are very defined and I'm tan now so it looks great. My ribs done show yet unless I suck in, and my hips only show a little. I've noticed that my hands look green, today I stared at them all through school, I guess I have lost some weight in my hands and so all my veins, arteries, and tendons or w/e all show so they look green from the veins and arteries. I'm trying to do jaw exercises, I want my face to be more defined. I thought after doing so many drugs and all the jaw clenching that my face would be pretty, but it's not yet. Damn drugs are good for anything. hehe
Well I guess that's all for my update. I gotta go. I'll post new pics this weekend.
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Tuesday, June 29th, 2004

Subject:diet pills
Posted by:16_days_x.
Time:9:26 pm.

anyone ever take 'ripped fuel extreme' diet pills? cuz.. i have some. but i never have taken them and i dont know what the effects are..or if there are any... so..yeah....

200 calorie intake today. :-)

X-posted like WOAH
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Posted by:16_days_x.
Time:3:01 am.
hello all,

this is my new ED journal. my other journal is xlove_is_hatex

but i really needed one devoted to ana.


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Saturday, June 26th, 2004

Posted by:dementedsprite.
Time:11:36 am.
Mood: crappy.
I'm housesitting for a friend of mine and I thought that not eating would be easier here seeing as the only things to eat are some cheese, sesame bagels, and ice cream. However, add in the fact that it's an unlimited amount of ice cream, it gets a lil harder. And there's no scale here. The only thing I have to check myself with is my belt and a mirror. I'm seriously going to go nuts.
Here's what I've had in the past week (since Sunday):
3 nutri-grain bars
1 pint of ice cream
5 dr peppers
1 garlic cheese bread
2 bagels
1 jamba juice
1 snickers bar
That seems like too much, even though it's probably not. Oh well. It definitly lacks any nutritional content. I should make it a point to eat something healthier if I am actually going to eat.
If only I could be like 30 lbs less... that would be awesome.
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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004

Posted by:sagira_keenan.
Time:2:09 pm.
This is an appeal to all who are/have been through anorexia.

There is this girl in my school who is so obviously anorexic. It really hurts to look at her. What was once a vibrant beautiful girl, is now only a shadow of her former self. I don't know this girl very well, but I want to help. I need to help. Everyone knows about it, teachers, students...

And she gets absolutely mad when someone comfronts her. This is why I haven't spoken to her. I don't know her well and it would seem stupid to hear me, who is a bit on the chubby side, tell her she has an eating disorder. And she should have noticed by now that she is anorexic, but she is doing absolutely nothing about it.

Everytime she stands up, and we all get a good view of her legs (better to say, her bones, because that is all she has. For only bones can be that thin), I fear she will break. Fragile indeed. Made of the thinnest glass.

And this is why I need advice. How do you tell a person that seems to be in denial, that what she is doing is wrong? That she is beautiful the way she originally was? She thinks so little of herself, I know this from her friends. Also, I was sitting next to her when she told the other person she didn't have a boyfriend because "they were all too good for her".

I beg of you, advice, from people who know best how to deal with an anorexic, and the state of mind she is currently in.

How do you help?

For she is quickly withering into nothingness, and I don't think that is the goal.
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Sunday, June 20th, 2004

Posted by:fallenqt89.
Time:12:43 am.
=) hey all i lost 4 fucking pounds its not enough but its a start anyways im looking 4 more ana mia buddies if intrested go comment my lj saying u wanna b added=)<333

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Saturday, June 19th, 2004

Subject:This is bad...
Posted by:dementedsprite.
Time:3:03 pm.
Mood: gloomy.
Nothing looks "thin enough" to me anymore. I tried to find a thinspiration picture for my desktop, and nothing looked good enough for me. I even thought Gisele looked fat!! I don't know what's wrong with me. Nothing looks good unless I can see bone.
I weigh 129 still. I'm starting to wonder what I'd look like at 100, but then realising I'll never get there. I've stopped taking the bus, I now walk or bike everywhere or take the train. I thought maybe doing crunches everyday and using weights would tone out all the fat, and then I'd be happy with the numbers if I knew they weren't fat, but now I have muscle with a thick layer of fat over the top.
Everyone is starting to get on my case for not eating again. For a while I had people in support of me not wanting to eat, but then they all came to their senses I guess. My mom's mad because the food is going bad, and then she just gets even more pissy when I tell her to stop buying food.
Am I the only person who posts here anymore? Am I the only one who reads this community anymore? Oh well.
I'm bored right now, so I guess I'll update my stats and post a pic.
height: 5'8"
hw: 165 lbs
cw: 129 lbs
gw: 115lbs for now
waist: 30"
Pictures.Collapse )
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Saturday, June 12th, 2004

Posted by:akisstooquick.
Time:1:58 pm.

Hello, Im Jacki Curley.Collapse )
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Posted by:dementedsprite.
Time:10:11 am.
Mood: bored.
since no one ever posts here I'm gonna post a quiz.Collapse )
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Wednesday, June 9th, 2004

Posted by:dementedsprite.
Time:3:16 pm.
Mood: excited.
129 lbs it says... :D
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Posted by:xlove_is_hatex.
Time:4:00 pm.
i believe this community had died.

or its just really inactive
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Friday, June 4th, 2004

Subject:going down.
Posted by:dementedsprite.
Time:2:28 pm.
Mood: pleased.
Today the scale says 130.5. I guess I can be happy with that. At least it's going down.
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